Weekly Photo Challenge: Symbol

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Several times between 1987 and 1990, during guided imagery experiences or in dreams, I had received a “gift” of blue-white light. Each experience had so profoundly moved me that in December of 1990, I decided to ask Amma what the light represented. She responded that blue-white light is the color that occurs when an individual soul merges with God.

I believe that sometimes we are given glimpses of what is possible, and then the “door” closes, or the “window” shuts, and our job is to do the work to get back to that place. Having glimpses of the sacred keeps us motivated to keep moving forward. It seemed to me that receiving the vision of the blue-white light was one of those instances.

Sometime later, I purchased a ring that had a light blue stone. One day as I gazed at it, I realized the color was very similar my blue-white light experiences. At another time, I came upon a metal figurine of two angels holding a light blue globe. I saw the figurine as a symbol of those earlier experiences and purchased it. The angels have been on my altar ever since.

When I read that this week’s Weekly Photo Challenge was “Symbol,” the angel figurine came to mind. This morning, before I left for Toronto, I took photographs of it. I was annoyed that I kept seeing a reflection of myself holding the camera in the globe and actively avoided taking a picture that had me in it.

When I looked at all the photos later, I discovered that there was a reflection of one sort or another in each of them. I saw that those reflections created a beautiful effect.

As I thought about my avoidance, I realized that was symbolic in and of itself. I had resisted taking a picture of me surrounded in blue-white light, a light I had been told represented the soul merging with God.

After I return to Seattle, I will purposely take a photograph where I am in the reflection.  I will look at it when I am procrastinating doing the practices I know I need to do in order to progress on my spiritual journey!

9 thoughts on “Weekly Photo Challenge: Symbol

    1. At the time I had the experiences of the blue-white light I was avidly opposed to anything spiritual. Even hearing the word God made me want to vomit.

      I met Amma soon thereafter and my whole life changed. I see that time as the beginning of my spiritual awakening.

      Or perhaps I should say re-emergence of my spirituality since I had been very spiritual prior to 1968. (At the same time, I know all my years of resistance were a part, a necessary part, of my spiritual journey as well. I had never left the path, I just thought I had!)

      I don’t see the blue-white light as a specific destination I am striving for. I don’t think of self realization. I and I have no desire for this to be my last lifetime. Rather I see it as a symbol that promotes me in moving forward towards and into love, becoming more loving myself in the process.

      I also see it as a reminder that I will always be in Amma’s arms, whether she is physically present or not.

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      1. “I don’t think of self-realization.”

        That is a wonderful and very helpful approach to have Karuna, if I may be permitted to say so. To escape the dualistic paradigm of subject and object, the seeker must disappear as an inhabited thought-construct, meaning the idea of a subject acquiring or absorbing into realisation/enlightenment (however conceived) dissolves in the actualisation of the same. It might be thought of as the paradox of the spiritual seeker: how to continue along one’s path without it being seen as process of accumulation or progression? As the Buddha taught, “there is suffering, yet none who suffer, there is a path, yet none who walk it, there is Nibbana, yet none who attain it.”

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      2. I love that quote from Buddha. Thanks for sharing it.

        Sreejit recently heard a Vedanta teacher say that “Some people have glimpses but it is no better than a headache, for so long as there is an experience, then the separation is still there.”

        I can see that point of view too. I know it is important not to get caught up in experiences, but they are what got my attention in the early days. Now they are rare, very rare. I miss them sometimes, but that’s okay. I currently see the process as being a combination of “being/allowing, effort and grace.”

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  1. What a beautiful post. I love that you have available symbols of your soul merged with God to bring you “home.” All of us on a spiritual path have days where the Presence is so CLOSE, and days when that closeness seems an illusion. I didn’t understand that at first and faulted myself for the days of lonely separation, but it’s all part of the journey. There is no light without dark. Big hugs and many blessings to you, dear Karuna.

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  2. What a beautiful post, Karuna! I love the images with the reflections of the photos you took. The reflections add another layer to what the readers sees and probably a different experience each time. “not seeking self-realization”…wise words. Although tempting for many of us, seeking too hard sometimes makes us “overlook” moments that might have been on that spiritual path. So glad you chose this for The Sunday Wrap.

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